She also opened up about the tragic loss of two of her closest friends, Chris Cornell who died by suicide in 2017, and Momsen’s “fifth band member” and best friend Kato Khandwala who died in 2018 after a motorcycle crash.
“It took me very down,” she told Badgley.
“I fell into a very dark hole of depression and substance abuse, and everything that comes with death and loss and trauma.”
The star admitted to almost falling completely off the radar.
“I essentially quit everything. I stopped making music; I couldn’t listen to music. It bummed me out, for lack of better term. It was dark. It got very dark there for a while.”
After falling apart it was eventually music that pulled Momsen out of her dark place; a desire to honor Khandwala’s legacy inspiring the singer.
“I’m going to finish what we started, and not let this take me down entirely,” she recalled feeling.
“It came very close to that. I had to make a very conscious decision at some point – where I was either gonna die or I was gonna move forward. I chose to move forward.”
“It took something that was incredibly sad and devastating and almost killed me, and I tried to turn it into my power,” Momsen added.
“He’s here with me every night. He’s no longer here but we’re still doing this together.”
